Today.

TODAY. I just hammered about 56 nails into my bedroom wall and strung yarn around each one to spell out the word. Yes, the word "TODAY" is now plastered over my head when I wake up each morning and close my eyes each night. It's my new mantra. It's the only way to get through this, people. You can't let yourself miss out on the beauty of today because the fog of your pain from yesterday clouds your vision. Don't let anyone take it from you. If you have kids, don't block out their sweet voice because you are listening to the porno in your head of your spouse's encounters with his/her lover. Seriously, I did this for nine months and I'm so mad at myself for it. I pretty much missed 9 months of my kids' lives. I was there with them, but I was not present. My God, I don't even remember this last Christmas morning. Did Christmas even happen? I have pictures to prove that I was there, opening presents with the kids, but I was so absent. I don't remember the magic.

DO NOT let your spouse and the "other" one take another minute from your life. Today is YOURS. OWN it. Maximize it. Blow the day with things that make you happy. Who gives a rip that your house isn't perfectly tidy? Does it matter anymore? Do any of those petty things matter anymore? No, because now you're going to put yourself first. That's right, you are more important than that stupid pile of paperwork that needs to be filed or the dirty floor that needs mopping. Do what you need to do to get through today.

Go to the gym. Go out with your girlfriend and don't feel guilty about it. Pour a cocktail and watch an old movie in your pajamas at 6PM. Who the hell cares? Right now you need to take care of YOU. You deserve it.